Christmas shinannigans!

We are one in that lull part of the year between Christmas and new year when nobody’s sure gat to do but drinking at any hour is acceptable! I wish you all a merry Christmas and hop you all had a brilliant day!

We spent Christmas Day morning relaxing and watching TillyMae open her Santa gifts, Santa was in a tight budget this year but she thoroughly enjoyed what she got and her favourite gift of all has turned out to be a slinky!!!

Mouse on her new dory bike.
Taking after mummy with her vanity table!

At lunchtime we went to my older sister Victoria’s new home to spend the day with all of my side of the clan.  Again the kids were thoroughly spoiled but they waited very patiently while the presents were dished out!

Mamar controlling the kids successfully.

As for us adults it’s safe to say we had an even better day! We decided to do secret Santa this year which was hilarious, we had set a £10 budget.  I got my brother in law Rob and strangely he got me! My present was so thoughtful, I got a calendar which consisted of photographs from our wedding, I love it and always use a calendar and some cigarettes.  I got him two bottles of duvel lager and a jar of choc nibs.  It worked so well we have decided to do it again next year (we have already picked who we are getting!) but we have upped the budget.

James with my mum (aka secret Santa) doesn’t he look over whelmed with his happy elf gift 😂

Dinner was epic as always!  Victoria always makes starters and I make desert.  This year we had homemade French onion soup (made from scratch) with emmental topped crusty rolls. It was UNBELIEVABLE, I will never be able to eat it out of a can again.  She also made pate and prawns.  We had a traditional turkey dinner (side note we have pigs in blankets with unsmoked bacon because smokes is rank and tastes like Eden camp!) with the addition of gammon and finally for pud I made my Nutella cheesecake, which never gets eaten until teatime (we are always too stuffed) 

Anyway we all had a great day and I hope you all did too!

Signing off with love and lipstick,

Pip 💋🖤


Loss and what it has done to me.

Me, uncle Simon and my big sister Victoria.

This year my family and I lost someone so profound in our lives that my mind still has not come to terms with it.
I spoke to my uncle last night and this is why I felt now was a good time to talk about him. I dreamt so vividly of him, so much so nobody can convince me that it was not real.  

My uncle Simon went in for a heart valve operation (the second one he had) and while under he his brain was starved of oxygen and was put into a coma from which he never regained consciousness.  With his beloved partner Robin and my mum and dad by his side he passed.

The tragedy of this event has hit all of us in different ways (it caused my little sister to go into early labour bringing to us such joy of a new baby boy Elliott mere minutes after uncle Simon passed) but I am sure we all have different ways of coping and all I can do is open up about mine.  This is probably the  first time I have ever really spoken about it in any depth, to anyone so bare with me.  

Since I was a little girl I always felt different, I was a geek, I was awkward, loved the arts and history and this man was my guide who served to show me who I always wanted to be and embrace things that always felt other worldly and unreachable.  

My heart aches that I never got to tell him just how much he meant to me.  I had a conversation with him the evening before he went in to hospital about my wedding and his excitement to attend, which sadly wasn’t meant to be, I wish then that I had told him how he made me strive to be better, to achieve all the glorious things he said with ease that I was both capable and deserving of, how his words always struck me in such a deep profound way and above all else just how deeply I loved him.  He was so independent and achieved so many amazing things in his lifetime that I could only dream of.  He taught me above all else how to be accepting, he did this without knowing through his love and devotion to his partner, my uncle robin.  They had been together as long as I can remember and they were the perfect match .  There was a time when due to my age, I could not describe what their relationship was but I always knew it was simply love.  Love that gave me a fundamental basis for all my feelings and views that I hold on relationships to this day, a basis that allows me to never judge but to always be open to others emotions and lifestyle.

The loss of this man is a little too much for me.  I cannot process it or maybe I won’t allow  myself as I can’t think how I can ever stop the pain if I let it out.  I am not equipped to deal with death, it’s my crux, the demon that follows me.  I cannot even speak of it in depth right now because I know what happens, the fear comes, the black hole opens and I get lost.  

This man, my uncle, a man I hero worshipped is gone and with it a peice of my heart, a peice that can never mend and if I am honest I don’t think I would ever want it to.  

Don’t get me wrong, I deal and cope with it in my own way and maybe this is the first step to opening up about my fears. 

Overall I am not religious but I am blessed to of known, loved and been loved by such an amazing, unique man.  I will try to be as great as he thought I was and to achieve to my fullest potential what he dreamed for me.  This is my first baby step, taken with immense love and pride in my heart.

Signing off with love and lipstick,

Pip 💋🖤

Bye Felicia (and by Felicia I mean 2016!) 

🍻 cheers 🍻

For those who have been reading my blog you will know what kind of rollercoaster year I have had, super highs and mega lows, what an intense year but it is finally drawing to a close with me being a married woman (something I never thought was on the cards for me!)

I am very much looking forward to starting 2017 and I hope this time next year I can tell you all the wonderful things that have been achieved.  I have my honeymoon in may to look forward to and I can’t wait to have some alone time with my husband (which is mega difficult with 3 kids between us!).

I started this blog as motivation to move my life ahead and hopefully grow into myself, open up (which has always been difficult for me) and achieve things I maybe never would if I don’t feel I was putting it out there for the world to see. 

It’s like my weight loss if I don’t stand on the scales in front of someone I feel had the power to see it and judge me then I am not accountable and have no concept of when to stop, This is why I Plan on going back to weightwatchers in January, mamas packing a few extra festive pounds! Dieting was a big part of my 2016 getting ready for my wedding in November but since then I have ate my way through EVERYTHING and put on 8lb since then…..and I have New Year’s Eve to go yet! 

I’m not normally a resolutions kind of person but as this is going to be a year of change, my New Years resolutions are as follows. 

  • Blog every other day (was going to be everyday but that’s maybe a bit much for me with the kids and job)
  • Maintain my weight.
  • Try to quit smoking.
  • Try and get into a better financial situation for my family.

All achievable but I need to make a conscious effort to make it happen.

Anyway, on a lighter note, tonight is New Year’s Eve and mine consists of a party at my house with friends and some of our family (the ones not with us will be sadly missed) with food and drink a plenty, so hopefully we should all have a good night.  

So to everyone who reads my blog, happy new year, I hope you get everything you wish for.

Signing off with love and lipstick, 

Pip 💋🖤

Sleek makeup review.

Sleek makeup review.

Sleek box used for eyes, lips, highlight and contour.

For Christmas I recieved the Sleek Makeup box of tricks ultimate makeup haul.  It was an amazing bargain from Boots at £25 down from £45 on special offer.

Inside the box contains 

  • Vintage Romance I-Divine Eyeshadow Palette (£8.99)
  • Face Contour Kit In Medium (£6.99)
  • Lip Vip Lipstick In Guestlist (£5.49)
  • Twist Up Midnight (£2.99)
  • Eyebrow Stylist In Medium (£6.49)
  • Solstice Highlighting Palette (£9.99)
  • Matte Me In Shabby Chic (£4.99)
  • Full Fat Lash Mascara (£6.99)
  • Blush By 3 In Lace (£5.99) 

That’s £58.91 worth of products for £25!! Which is a fantastic saving.  I’m not sure I would buy every product individually but as a ‘newbie’to this brand I like the broad spectrum of products included. 

Firstly I am going to start by telling you what I just wont use. 

1. The eyebrow pencil, just won’t happen! I have no eyebrows at all so I have to sculpt in eyebrows everyday and trust me it’s a very precise bit of trickery that has taken me years to perfect and I’m so picky about the products that work for me.

2. The lipstick in the box was red, I cannot wear red with pink hair, it’s too clashy for my liking but my sister loves a red lipstick and the shade looks nice and cool toned so i will give her that and I’ll get back about that one!

3. The mascara, I gave it a try and it just didn’t cut the mustard for me.  I wear glasses so can’t wear false lashes but I love the false lash look and this mascara just didn’t give the look I like.  This is just a personal choice but I will keep it in my bag incase my prefered roller lash runs out.

I am very choosy about eyeshadow as I find it difficult to get an eyeshadow that lasts on my kid without fading or creasing (even with primer) this palette really surprised me, the colours are perfect for me all the pinks and purples go well with my hair and they were buttery and easily blendable.  The pigmentation was also really surprising, the pans are small but for the price it’s understandable.

Blush in Lace

I’m pale with pink hair so the thought of coral/orange toned blush horrified me but when I used it during my product trial I though it looked nice, quite subtle and not over pigmented, just enough to make me look a little less of a corpse.

Contour pallet in medium with a highlighter included.

Anyone who knows me knows that contouring and highlighter are my ‘craze’ make up favourites, this contour set is crazy pigmented, as I found out today! I went up a little heavy handed and ended up looking like I had a fight with a jar of marmite but all was not lost, I knocked it back with a bit of translucent powder and I was ready to rock and roll! 

The black twist up eyeliner is amazing and creamy and goes into the waterline so pigmented it’s a thing of wonder.

Such a pretty shade of a nude pink.

I’m not a fan of matte lippies but the colour of this one is pretty enough to put up with the dryness (all mattes make my lips feel like the Sahara!) it’s a pinky nude and it stayed on amazingly, impressed.

Highlighter = WOW!!!!

STOP THE PRESS…..I have heard good reviews of the included highlighter palette and no word of. a Lie it’s spectacular , one of the best highlighters I have ever used, it’s was so bright I almost blinded my husband.  It’s truly a thing of beauty a hidden gem that I cannot recommend enough.

So overall I was happy with the selection included and the price was very reasonable.  My makeup bag is smitten.  It’s fantastic to find high end products with such a bargain price tag!

Signing off with love and lipstick,

Pip 💋🖤

‘Tis the season!

Final shift at work until after Christmas!

Happy Christmas eve everyone, that’s my shift finished and on my way home to finally start the festivities and this year I’m a busy Beaver!

Starting tonight I’m going out for a meal with the hubby, daughter and some of my great friends, maybe even a glass of wine or two then back home to wait for Santa! Tilly’s just turned 3 on Halloween and bless her, she’s very unsure of mr Claus! She has made me promise that santas not coming into our house while she’s sleeping so the request has been put in for a magic drop off!! 

Tomorrow am so excited to spend my first Christmas as a Mrs with my family (it should be nice and noisy!) at my sisters new house and I can’t wait!! Fun, games, food and drinks with my family and should be a great one! 

Boxing Day is Christmas part 2 as I get to spend the day with my family flecks (hopefully my niece Lucy is feeling better by then as the poor bean has flu!) and my stepsons are coming down for the week so that should be fun.

Have a brilliant Christmas everyone and thank you all for your support with my blog.  Hope Santa is kind. 

Signing off,

Pip 💋🖤

Is kissing your children wrong?

Recently I have been hearing about  a controversy facing Hollywood actress Hilary Duff.  A subject that has caused length discussions over many media platforms in which she has been judged openly.  A subject that has stirred strong emotions of both anger and empathy.

What can be at the root of such feelings of disgust and strong reactions? This photograph…..

Hillary Duff kissing her OWN son on the lips at Disneyland!!! The same controversy surrounded Victoria Beckham her daughter earlier this year when she released a similar photograph.

My view on this basically consists of the statement Are you actually joking?  People have commented on her personal twitter page, where she posted said photo, that her actions were ‘warped’ and ‘inappropriate.  Has the world gone mad? How in any shape or form is the image anyway ‘inappropriate’ or ‘warped’ and some have even gone as far to say it ‘sexualises’ children.  Shame on the people who see a mother kissing their child and shows any negative feelings, it’s natural, it’s a way of showing the love that you feel inside in a physical form.  There are so many children all over the world that would kill to feel any kind of love let alone to have a parent so proud of their emotions that they want to share it with the world.

Just love.

I kiss my daughter on the lips all of the time, she comes up and kisses me on the lips and I wouldn’t have it any other way.  I find it grotesque that people could even see anything sexual in this.

Mouse even kisses her dolls because she loves them, she is their mummy and my heart swells when I see it.

I still kiss my mum on the lips and I’m 33 and I will do until the day one of us is not here and we can’t anymore.  To be fair I kiss anyone I love on the lips my husband, kids, family and even friends.

Is it still ‘inappropriate’ if it is two adults or is it just the child element that causes such a reaction?

Personally I can’t see what’s wrong with a mother/child Expressing love toward each other.  If the world stopped critiquing natural love and just embraced it we would probably be in a better place.

Signing off,

Pip 💋🖤

Things that make me go hmmmm (and other expletives!!)

I like to think I am tolerable but sweet lord I get truely annoyed at the most random of things like…………

  • People who cut the bus queue (howay, we have been waiting 30 minutes and u just sauntered on, errrrr get to the back knobhead!)
  • Impolite behaviour (I didn’t have to hold the door open, I ain’t no butler just achnowlege my existence)
  • Don’t touch the merchandise (I am more than happy to help you but their is no need to put your hands on me let alone hug me in an uncomfortable fashion, you wouldn’t do it to a man ,would you?)
  • When I’m sick and because you can’t see me throwing up you automatically think I’m faking. (Feel free to come and look after me when I’m bed ridden!) 
  • Celebrities giving their kids stupid names (I understand you are in the public eye and ‘want to be groundbreaking’ but that kids got to go through life and deserves not to be mocked at every opportunity)
  • When I can’t even go for a wee in peace (don’t get me wrong I love you being a kid but seriously this is something I’ll NEVER miss)
  • TV with no subtitles (my hearings like that of a 89 year old and I have kids screaming MAM MAM MAM at me, come on give me chance to take in some light entertainment!)
  • Invasion of space (I’m putting my pin in the machine back up man, security and all that)
  • Picture perfect (I have stood for the past hour sculpting, baking, concealing and illuminating my mug and I’m feeling fabulous so why does the selfie I just took say ‘hmmmm just slapped this on! FFS) 

Pip 💋🖤