All of my life I strived to be happy, i ran from anything that didn’t sit right or even slightly felt as if it wasn’t going my way. Filling life with as much joy as I can cram into my 5 ft 2 body was and always will be, other than my family the driving force in my existence and I feel after 34 years I am finally in a place of self achieved contentment, I am married, I have an amazing family who I love and love me just a feircely and a circle of friends who I would stand with through any battle and a job I love. This is what I was searching for but not particularly what I thought would bring happiness so be open to the unexpected.
I have recently taken the massive new step, especially considering I usually hate change and finally after 11 years at HMV and gotten myself a brand shiney new job. I can proudly say that I work for smashbox cosmetics and get to surround myself with makeup all day. I was past believing that you can start again, that life goes my way sometimes which makes me even more appreciative. I have always loved makeup and have even gained distinctions at college so I am beyond thrilled in my new job. I have been welcomed with open hearts by my new work mates which makes everything so much easier.
Anyway I am getting away from my point. I do and always will have insecurities but they pale in significance to the great things that can be achieved in everyday life. Life truely did start for me at 30 and here I am 34 and finally living. I am so excited for the future and look forward to ticking more things off my newly formed ‘bucket list’ (I have even saved a list on my phone) because I can and I will drive myself to be better, to gain happiness to fill my life with the things I need and want, no more putting it on the back burner. My dreams vary from small to large but I will be going to IMATS next spring, I will be attending the hyper Japan festival in London next year all of this along side learning some new things, My mother always said that I would be a life long student. I want to learn how to drive, to learn a new language, to take my little mouse to Disney for her Halloween birthday in a few years and anything else that sparks my interest.
Alway remember to dream big and live even bigger. You are worthy of good things so grab them and embrace it all because sometimes life is really shitty so while it’s good make it great.
I need to keep my mind in this frame and keep myself motivated so here we go and I will drop in with my little achievements along the way. I hope you all share with me your life goals and let’s all move forward and grab life by the balls.
Signing off with love and lipstick,